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Tuesday, December 14, 2010

"Forgotten" by Taylor Gibson

                I rub my wet, tired eyes and then stretch out my arms, tight from the past night’s rest.  I sit up and crawl out of my warm, cozy bed, but not with the usual mood of dreading the day’s challenges.  Today, I’m unusually excited.
                I walk over to the wall on which hangs my calendar.  I drag my finger slowly across to today’s date, December 10th, although I was already quite positive of the date, and cross it off with a Sharpie.  This day, the day which comes only once a year, is very important to myself.  I’m feeling very happy, in a good mood, and as I get dressed, I select the clothes that make me feel most special.  I first slip my comfortable, long sleeve basketball warm-up shirt over my short, wavy brown hair and stick my arms in the holes of the sleeves.  I then put one leg into my Buckle jeans and put in the other, following that.  Finally, I slide my left foot into one gold Coach shoe and then slide my right foot into the other gold Coach shoe.  I brush my hair, trying to tame the wavy strands.  Then, I put on a touch of make-up, just enough to cover the blemishes that reside on my face.  I look in the full-length mirror, and satisfied, I skip out of my bedroom and hop down the stairs.
                Every year on this particular day, I can smell the sweet taste of cinnamony French toast.  Today, either my nose was not working properly, or there was no sweet smell lingering in the air.  This was strange, as I was used to this smell on this day that comes only once a year.  Suspiciously, I walk into the kitchen and look at the empty kitchen table; just as I suspected: no French toast.
                The house is still.  Quiet—as if somebody had died.  Usually, I can’t walk through my house on this certain day of the year, without one of my eight siblings jumping out at me, giving me big hugs, and wishing me a happy birthday.  I’m starting to wonder why things aren’t going the way they usually go.
                My mom walks in as I’m sitting at the kitchen table, pondering, and she tells me good morning.  I wait for a few seconds, waiting in hopefulness, just waiting in hopefulness for the precious sound of a “happy birthday,” but after a few seconds of this waiting that feels like hours, I reply with a simple, “morning.”
                I walk slowly over to the pantry, and as I’m walking, I mention to my mom that a piece of French toast sounds awfully delicious today.  She responds with just a simple head nod and I see that she’s too engaged in reading her newspaper to probably even have heard what I had said to her.  I continue walking and then open the double doors of the kitchen pantry.  The cereals seem to be staring me right in the face.  My stomach churns, knowing that I will be forced to eat cereal like every other day of the year.  I grab the box of Cocoa Pebbles and groan to myself.  Normally, I’d be running to the cupboard to grab a bowl so that I can pour myself some cereal, since, after all, it is my favorite.  But today, with the way I’m feeling and have been treated so far, eating dirt seems to be equivalent to my Cocoa Pebbles.  But knowing that I will be hungry if I don’t eat something, I grab a bowl, spoon, and a jug of milk and sit down to eat.  The chocolaty smell rises to and through my nose, and I instantly gag.  My brother, Bentley, then walks in and, like my mom, says nothing but a “good morning.”  He doesn’t see, but I roll my eyes at him and place the Cocoa Pebbles right smack in front of him at the table and mutter, “Here.”  I continue on, dragging my feet, as I walk back up the stairs and back into my bedroom.  As I sit back down on my bed, I think aloud, “How could they forget?”

"Loneliness" by Taylor Gibson

                Emptiness—it fills my soul and my anger instantly turns into sadness.  My face almost hurts from the corners of my mouth being turned upside down too long.  I feel lost.  I thought I was important or at least important enough for my own family to remember what day it was.  I guess not.  I guess I’m not that important.  Nothing can fully explain and nobody will ever be able to fully comprehend the loneliness I’m feeling right now.  I’ve never felt this way before and I pray to God that I never have to feel it again.
                It’s like being the only person alive, standing on earth—No, it’s like being the only person on earth “period.”  Just when you think you hear a voice, you turn to realize it’s nobody; it’s really just your own thoughts taking over everything.  Just when you think you hear a footstep, you again turn to nothing; you realize it’s just your own body shaking uncontrollably out of fear and loneliness.  I hate it.  I hate feeling so alone.
                I stop my ghastly thoughts for a moment and look at the clock.  I realize that if I don’t leave now, I’ll be late for school.  I snatch my backpack and rush down the stairs, being careful not to trip as this would only make my day worse.  I quickly stop by the kitchen and look at my brother and mom—nothing.  Not even a slight head turn to acknowledge my presence.  I roll my eyes and head out the front door.  I sprint down the sidewalk, angrily stepping on every crack in hope to break my mother’s back, and finally, reach the bus stop.  The bus pulls to a stop and I know I just barely made it.  I’m now a little bit happier, in high hopes that one of my best friends will remember what today is.  I find a seat and my best friend walks up the aisle and, glowing, asks to sit next to me.  I smile and nod my head at her.  She plops down next to me and she says, “Do you know what day it is?”
                Sarcastically, I say, “No, tell me!”
                “Friday!” she exclaims.  “The weekend’s almost here!”
                I sigh and slouch back down into my seat.
                She looks at me with a confused face and asks, “What’s wrong with you?”
                “Oh, nothing, “ I reply.
                She shrugs her shoulders and opens her bag to take out a book so she can study.  I realize that I should have known not to get my hopes up.  My previous feeling of loneliness reenters my soul.  The previous feeling of being the only person on earth comes back into me, destroying me—piece by piece.  Someone please tell me; when will this loneliness end?
               

"Remembered" by Taylor Gibson

                The school day is coming to a close and still no one has remembered my birthday.  This possibly has to be one of the worst days of my whole entire life.  First, I’m forgotten; then that leads me to be very lonely.  What I would like to know is when or even if I’ll be remembered.
                I get on the bus to go home and sit at the very back, hoping nobody sits next to me—I’m not in the mood to talk.  Thankfully, nobody sits next to me.  The bus pulls slowly out of the school parking lot and I know it will be awhile before I get home as the kids in my neighborhood are the last to be dropped off today.  Since I have time and am exhausted from the long day’s work, I decided to let myself lie down on the seat of the school bus and take a short nap.  My eyes slowly close, silence becomes evident, and thoughts clear my head.
                Thirty minutes later…
                Ah! Cramp!  I shoot up and out of my seat and realize that the position I was sleeping in was—Wait!  I’m not in a seat… I’m back in my bed!  How’d I get here?  What is going on?  There’s no way that could have been a dream.  It was so real, so clear, so…well, nightmare-ish!  I decide to investigate.  I get out of my bed, still tired and confused as to how I was all of the sudden in it, and walk over to my calendar.  December 10th—the day hadn’t been crossed off yet.  Wow.  This means it really was just a dream—Or should I say nightmare?
                I shake off the weird feeling as I try to figure out why I’d have such an awful dream.  I get dressed and go through my birthday morning routine, just as I had in my dream.  I cross my fingers and exit my bedroom.  There stood my eight siblings.
                “Happy birthday!” they shouted in unison.
                My face lights up as they hug me with all their might, one by one, followed by a big group hug.  I’m so happy that they really did remember!  I then head down the stairs into the kitchen and what do I smell?  Yes!  French toast!  I see the cinnamony goodness on the table in front of me and look up at my mom with sheer joy.  I bet she’s never seen me so happy just because of two pieces of her French toast.  After she tells me good morning and happy birthday, and after I say thank you and good morning back, I sit down and stick my fork into the French toast.  I lift it up and shove it into my mouth, bending over the plate so I don’t get any syrup on anything.  I laugh to myself as I see my brother Bentley eating Cocoa Pebbles—he looks pretty happy to be eating them.
                I finish up my breakfast, say goodbye to my family, and head out the front door, skipping to the bus stop.  The bus pulls up and I get on it and find a seat.  My friend runs up the aisle, asks to sit next to me, and hands me a huge present.  She tells me happy birthday and my day just keeps getting better.
                After school…
                Wow!  My day at school was great!  Everyone remembered my birthday and gave me tons of attention!  Now, I couldn’t wait to get home and continue the great day.  The bus pulls up to my bus stop, and I grab my things and run off the bus, down the sidewalk, and up to my house, being careful not to drop any of my presents and other items.  I open the door to my house and…
                “Surprise!” shout all of my friends and family.
                OMG!  They threw me a huge surprise party!  This day is going extremely opposite from my dream last night.  I can’t believe it.  This is the best birthday I’ve ever had!
                Later that night…
                Today, I learned something.  My dream taught me that I’m not as thankful about the small things in life, like French toast, a hug, or a simple “happy birthday,” as I should be.  I realized that it’s the simple things in life that make me most happy.  Today, I decided something.  I decided that from now on, I’ll be more thankful for the times that I’m just simply remembered.

"Time Passing" by Savannah Adams

           I...I...How should I start this? What should
I write about? It’s always the monologues that get me. Maybe I should just set down the pen and clear my mind. Let’s see, I have basketball after school, I need to figure out my character skills project, and I am way behind in creative writing class, but I’m beginning to catch up. Oh, and tonight I have to type my honors biology lab write up.
          On the bright side my mom is making tacos tonight. Ah, I can taste the chili flavored seasoning and freshly made salsa layered on a perfectly baked hard shell. Plus there is still some leftover ice cream cake from my sister’s birthday last night. Except my mom probably ate all the frosting off the edges. Ah man, I hate is when she does that.
           I also can’t stand it when my sister projectile sneezes on me at the dinner table, but my dad always gets after her about that and makes her do twenty push ups for punishment. My sister, Sierra, and I, don’t get along the best sometimes, but we have the best memories. Like one time she tricked me into thinking that a dog treat was a cookie, but it was really a dog treat, and I ate it. Also, she would make me give her a massage and she would fall asleep and say she would give me one tomorrow... she never did. She also would sit on me and then drool on my face. One time she sat on me and took a mint out of her mouth and stuck it in mine. Then she put her hands over my mouth and waited for the mint to dissolve to release my mouth.
           Speaking of my mouth I have to go to the dentist tomorrow to get four teeth pulled, but at least I get to skip an hour of school. Oh wait, where was I? Oh yea, my monologue.

Monday, December 13, 2010

"Look Before You Fall" by Ellen Cook


It’s like a big rush of air on your face and then you forget everything
And you take a deep breath before you immerse yourself underneath
But sooner than you expected,
You can’t breathe.
But you’re so distracted by the way your heart beat is louder than an Aerosmith concert,
you can’t possibly notice that the lack of oxygen to your brain is cutting of your central unit of common sense
And by that time it’s too late anyways
Because even when someone sticks it to you between the eyes
You deny it.
And you sink lower and lower
And the main reason you remain at the bottom is because you have an unsatisfied urge for that feeling that you had at the top.
When you first dove in.
When you submerged yourself in false happiness, false bliss.
But now, forewarnings accounted for, the bottom is where you lie.
The bottom with guilt and loneliness.
The bottom that has stolen your breath and leaves you begging
To take it all back.
You’d give anything for another moment at the top.
A moment that you gave up willingly.
And all for what?

"Awakening Eyes" by Allison Lee


Hushed rest
Mind best in fantasy.
. .
Lids creak open
Eyes soaked, in the surrounding darkness.
Where am I again?
6:05. 6:05.
Weakly, they search for the ticking.
Gently flicking, trying to make out the source.
Silence.

Rubbing slowly,
Hoping to see wholly, the scene.
Reaching for that one switch right…
Here.
Eyes shutter in the new, cruel light.
Do I find delight in such torture?
Painfully, they figure they must lure open.
Better now to cope than waiting until tomorrow.



“Silence in Waiting” by Ellen Cook

She waits.
As she rereads the first line of chapter seven over, for a third time, still not comprehending.
Her head is elsewhere.
She looks at the ceiling, trying to clear her head.
She readjusts her blanket, so it covers her shoulders.
It is so quiet.
The silence is shattered by her own voice.
She breathes out and a slight noise comes from her throat, like a small scream, but more peaceful.
The sound makes her bones shiver, and her skin tightens.
She speaks, though she does not know what to say.
Her voice, cracks at first, but then is smooth and soft like an old record
As she drowns in the sound, the key ends in silence.
Silent as she’s always been.
Silent as she’s meant to be.
Silent as he’s kept her.
She doesn’t whisper another sound, as she looks down at her book
He’ll be home soon.
She waits.
As she rereads the first line of chapter seven over, for a third time, still not comprehending