Jude Jefferson. Well, Jude currently lives in California, busy promoting his band, “Burn.” Last time I wrote, I was talking about how in love I am with Jude. Well, things have changed. I still am crazily in love with him, but right before he left, he broke the news to me. He said, “Look Aj, I know how you feel about me, but right now, I just can’t have a girlfriend. Its not you, it’s the band. I mean I’m going to be all the way in California, and a girlfriend, I just don’t have the time. I’m really sorry.” I was absolutely heart broken! I still cannot believe it, but what can I do? Exactly, I can move to California.
Aj Jacobson. Okay, so I told you about how much she feels for me, and how she wants to be more then friends, and how I just don’t, right? Well I broke the news to her. I told he straight up how it is. She was really upset, but at least I didn’t lead her on… Anyways, these days I’m living in California, like I was planning last time I wrote. It’s awesome, and I am SO glad I don’t have a girlfriend back at home holding me back. My band is doing great, and there are tons of awesome girls here who are into rock, something Aj hated. So as bad as I feel about telling her how I feel, I know I did the right thing. Besides, she’ll live. While I’ve been living out here though, I met this girl, Elle. She is a big rock music follower, and she loves my band. She’s really cool. So, after a few dates, we decided to be together as a couple. I haven’t told my family about her, yet, but I’m flying home for Thanksgiving, and she is coming with. I will tell Aj then to. Besides, I’m sure she’s moved on by now.
So I plan to move to California next semester, and I just heard that Jude is coming home for Thanksgiving. I already called some colleges in California, and filled out some college applications. Jude lives in Los Angeles, so I plan to go to a college close by. Plus, I don’t have to live on campus, I can live where ever. As long as I’m by Jude, I’m fine.
Thanksgiving is two days away, and my flight leaves tonight at 8pm. I’m filled with nerves and excitement about introducing my family to Elle. I’m most nervous about introducing her to my little sister, Jade. Jade is nine, but she sure knows how to have an opinion. She is not afraid to say what she is thinking aloud. You would think a nine year old wouldn’t be intimidating, and to me she’s not, but to someone who she doesn’t know and doesn’t WANT to know, she is. My mom loves meeting new people and especially friends of her children, but I’ve never introduced a girlfriend to her. I told Elle she has nothing to be nervous about, but I was lying, she has everything to be nervous about.
I decided it would be best not to tell Jude about my California plans, rather surprise him when I move there. My mother is an only child and both of her parents passed away when I was a child, and my dad’s side of the family lives in Florida, so we don’t have any family here to celebrate Thanksgiving with. Jude’s whole family lives in New York. After they moved here, our families became very close. Thanksgiving, when Jude was a freshman and I was in eighth grade, Jude’s oven wasn’t working and Mrs. Jefferson asked to borrow ours. Our moms had such a great time cooking that my mom invited them to stay for dinner. After that, every Thanksgiving our family’s switch off houses to share a Thanksgiving meal together. This year Thanksgiving is at Jude’s family home, Jude will be home, giving me something to be even more thankful for.
Every year Aj’s family and my family spend Thanksgiving together. This year, Thanksgiving is at my house, and that means Aj will be there as well as the rest of her family, (her parents) and mine. So that will be the time that I will introduce Aj to Elle. Luckily, my family will have a day to get used to her. Since Lynwood is such a small town, there are no hotels or motels. The closest one is thirty minutes away, meaning, Elle will be staying at my house… Giving her absolutely no where and no time to escape by her, this makes me even more nervous. Our plane lands around midnight tonight, so we are staying at a hotel in Omaha, about an hour away from Lynwood, and taking a rental car to Lynwood. I’m sure your thinking, well if your so nervous and you’ve never introduced a girlfriend to your parents, then why do it? My answer to this is, I’m in love with her, and I plan to marry her that is why I am doing this.
It’s the day before Thanksgiving. Jude is supposed to come home today and I can’t wait! I think I am going to go over there today to say hi and tell him how much I missed him, but I have to have a reason for going over there other than the fact that I missed him so much and am so happy that he is here. I barely could sleep last night and its only eleven am. He is supposed to be here around one thirty or two, so I have a little while. I’m so excited to see him! I cannot even begin to explain how excited I am. But I need to breath. Calm down Aj, you’ve got a lot of time before you see him at last. Just have to keep breathing, that’s all.
So we landed at midnight last night. I am exhausted. I’m so nervous, plus, I hate sleeping at hotels, I don’t know why, I just do, so I didn’t get much sleep at all. We are on our way to Lynwood, and although I am excited to see my family, I can’t get rid of these nerves! I just am so afraid my family won’t like her, and I don’t know why, I mean she is a great girl, so why am I so nervous? Whoa, I gotta shake this, I’m thirty minutes away, and I got time before I see them. Just gotta keep breathing and think positive.
It’s one thirty and I can hardly wait for his car to pull into the driveway. My mom is making me run to the store with her… right as we’re pulling out, Jude is pulling in. But wait, who is in the passenger seat? Is that a girl! OH MY GOSH! It’s a girl! I cannot believe this, I just cant believe it. He probably is just trying to make me jealous, that’s all. Just playing the jealousy game, no worries.
Well, it’s five at night and me and Elle just finished eating with my family, who loves her! Especially Jade. Elle loves them to, and I know that this Thanksgiving is going to be great. I hope Aj has moved on, because I don’t feel like dealing with that drama.
It’s Thanksgiving Day and we’re just getting ready to go over to Jude’s house. After really thinking about it, I know Jude is just trying to make me jealous so I’m going to go along with it. Anyways, I’m still moving to California next semester and I cannot wait! “Aj, let’s go!” Oops, I have to go, I’ll fill you in later!
After Aj got here, I could tell she still hadn’t moved on, but there was nothing I could do. So I watched football with the guys and ate dinner with everyone, but there was a slight tension in the room that I just couldn’t ignore. So after dinner, it was my year to do dishes and her year to dry, I took the time to talk to her about everything. I started by asking how she was doing, if there was a special guy out there, blah blah blah. After a little bit of small talk I broke the news to her that I thought Elle was the one, and I really think she should move on to, but she didn’t take it so well, actually not well at all. She looked at me with hurt in her eyes, set down the dish she was drying and walked out. I called her parents later that night just to check in on her, I could hear her in the background tellin them what to say, and the hurt was obvious, I could hear it in her voice. I feel bad, but I’m in love with Elle, that’s all there is to it. So if she hasn’t moved on yet, that’s her issue, not mine. Aj Jacobson, well I don’t know what she is to me anymore, friend? I don’t think she wants that, peaceful family friend, maybe.
So after dinner it was my year to dry and Jude’s year to do dishes, and things were going well. We were really getting along, having lots of small talk and I thought he was seeing me as more of a girlfriend, not of a friend, but I tend to be wrong, and boy was I wrong this time. He told me how he thinks Elle is the one and feels like I should move on because he doesn’t ever see us together. So I put down my dish I was drying, looked him hard in the eyes, and walked out. I was so depressed and I don’t know if I’m going to be able to move on, part of me says its time, but an even smaller part of me tells me to keep trying, never give up. I just don’t know anymore, I guess things don’t always work out the way you plan… Jude Jefferson, friend? Not really… next door neighbor? Yes. People change, and our relationship will never be the same. He’ll change his mind, someday. Maybe not today, maybe in a year, possibly even twenty years from now, we’ll find out, I guess.
Aj Jacobson: Hopelessly in love
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